Mood:  happy
Last time I forgot to mention that my baby came back home. He won't even go outside anymore. Which is good, I just give him the attention he wants when he wants it, then he goes off on his own and finds a comfortable spot to fall asleep.
Two days ago a ran into an hold friend I hadn't seen in a year. She and I were best friends throughout elementary and jr. high and had kept in touch in highschool until mayber junior year. I then saw her again when we started our first year of college, we hung out a few times, but we each already started our new lives so it wasn't to much like the old days. We eventually lost touch again. I saw her at the local grocery store, just caught up quickly, she's a mom now of a beautiful 8 month old girl. She showed me her picture on her camera phone. I was in total shock, it was hard to comprehend how much can happen in a year. She just let me know that she was living in an apartment nearby and decided not to get married, she felt that if she did she would have two kids (father of the baby) to take care than just one. I was happy for her. She always struck me as a person who takes action and responsibility for herself and does not need anyone to help her. She does have the support and love from her father, but she is the type of person to let herself be independant. She advised me that she was still going to continue school while taking on a full time job, but she knows it will be hard, especially since she can't bare to be away from her daughter to long. I wish her all the best, I know that the next time I see her, she will be the RN nurse she wants to be.
In other news, my love and I are officially together again. My "Nono", which is what I call him (childhood nickname) asked me to be his woman and his only woman on saturday night. He and I had gone to a party which was thrown in his honor (birthday) and stayed out late until maybe 3 or 4 in the morning. When he brought me home he asked if this meant we were a couple again. I just replied that he has been acting like we were for a while now. He then assured me that yes it did. He just let me know he loved me and that he wants to be with me and only me. I can't describe how wonderful that made me feel. I know that we are still young, hell he's only just turned 19 and I'm 20 already going on 21 in two months. I may be older than him, but when I'm around him, I feel like the young one. Despite that we both still have some immaturity, he is the wisest of us both. He is the one who has got me returning to school. He was the one who reminded me that if we want a life together and a good supported household for our children, we both need to have college degrees. I couldn't agree more with him, but my lack of motivation was holding me back. He then helped me realize, hey, if you want to work for people who will give you no respect and won't listen to you then don't go back, but if I want that respect and want to be heard, go back to school and show them that no one will hold you down. He is right. At my old job, which I did enjoy, I was not given respect and my needs were not heard. People left and right were gossiping about eachother, stabbing people in the back. When I went to speak with the vice-president of the company, she assured me she would take care of the problems and address them. She had a month before I left to show me that they were being addressed, but they weren't. Our company meetings were a waste of time, nothing was addressed, no memo was sent out. The problems just progressed and got worse. I wanted to walk out of there dozens of times, but I stayed because I knew I was going to be gone soon, and one day I would have a better life than this. I am glad to be going back to school now, so I won't have to work with unproffesional people ever again. I just know that whenever I feel like I can't do it, all I need to do is remind myself what I could be working with again if I didn't try to continue.

What's new this week.
Mood:  not sure
Since my last entry a lot has happened. I finally quit that horrible job of mine. Turns out it was just in time too. A friend of mine who I met there at work quit as well, but it wasn't like she planned on it. You see, she was noticing that some of the problems were getting bigger and nothing was being done about it. Since out ever so happy to help manager always has her door open and is willing to talk, she decided to go and speak with her to let her know that the problems are getting worse. She went to the manager/vice-president's office and asked if she could speak with her. The manager, instead of being welcoming or advising her she was a little busy, she answers quit rudely, "What is it now?" When my friend advised her of the problem and that she has been trying to get a hold of her for the past few weeks and still has had no reply, she decided to come speak to her. The ever so gracious manager responds with,"I already told you girls to stop it. I told you that so and so wasn't the manager and for you to stop your gossip." All this was complete and total bullshit. Not once has she asked to speak with someone in her office or has she aknowledged the problem in meetings. No one was advised of the problems and that they needed to stop or else. So my friend just said,"You know what, since you're going to be this way and obviously you don't treat everyone equally, I'm just going to march down stairs get my check and leave you my badge." The only thing the manager could say was,"Oh, thanks for the two weeks notice." Obviously being sarcastic. All I can say is good for my friend and quitting on those miserable low life asses you don't give a damn about anyone but themselves. That place is full of the most unproffesional, unhappy, immature low life's I've ever met. I pitty anyone who puts their home security in their hands. These people do not know anything about working together for the better, all they do is gossip, gossip, gossip. I just go so tired of it all that I had to leave. I wish I could have told off all those people, but you know what I just realized that I would be sinking to their level. Not all people who work their are bad people, some are just stuck in the middle of it all like I was, and hopefully they'll get the strength to leave that job too for something better, for better co-workers at least. Well enought of that, it's over and I never have to look back, hooray.

In other news, my best friend for 20 years or so just moved away this morning. She and her husband decided to move to Kansas. They have this adorable son who's 7 months, who is my godson by the way, and I'm going to miss him greatly. I woke up early this morning to wish them a safe trip and to say bye. We held back the tears, although we would miss eachother we know we'll see each other again. I'm already planning to visit over spring break. My godson will be a year and some months by then and probably running all over the place. Looking at them makes me hope I'll have my family someday (soon) with the love of my life. I know I need to finish college first before I make any plans for the futurs, but I can't help but to wish it soon. I better hit the books hard, huh, so I can finish school and become a drama teacher/pshycologist. Alrighty, I'm going to say bye for now. I want to take a nap before I get a start on my day.

WAAAA!!!!!!
Mood:  sad
Well, I have bad news. My baby ran away. He's been missing for two days now. I'm so crushed. I didn't mean to kick him out all night. He just kept crying, and crying. Just so you know, he always would do that for attention, so I thought nothing was wrong and he was just being spoiled again. I tried comforting him, petting him, holding him, nothing worked. He just continued to cry, so I thought maybe some fresh air would do him good, and I put him outside. After an hour or so, I decided to clean up his area, clean the litter box, change his food and water and then go outside and call him back in. When I went outside to call him back, he didn't come. I checked his little hideouts, he wasn't there. I called some more, nothing, just strays. I thought, ok, maybe he's playing and he'll be back in the morning. I went outside the next morning and called him, he didn't show. I thought ok, maybe he's asleep and will be back later. I went to work and got home around 11:30 at night, I called out to him, then nothing. I asked my mom if the cat had shown up at all during the day, then I saw his litter box, clean as a whistle. I then knew what her answer was going to be, then she tells me that my sister Laura and my niece Amber were outside all day looking for him and calling him and he never showed up. I then stayed up until 4 in the morning calling him every once in a while to see if he'll show, again, nothing. This morning when I woke up I decided to look for him once more, he never showed up. I needed to run some errands before I went to work so I left. I just got home at 11:30 p.m.,when my sister calls and tells me that there was still no luck today. I'm just here now, bummed out. Wanting to cry, I miss that cat. He can be a little terror at times, but he's really the sweetest little thing. He would always roll on the floor when he wanted attention and he would literally get in our way when we walked just so we can pick him up. He would not let us pass at all. When he was playful he would hide in the corner and as we walked by he would attack gently at our leg then jump from one leg to another as we continued walking. I think I am going to cry now just by talking about him. I really miss him and I hope he does come home. I don't want to lose him. He's my baby.

For starters.....
Mood:  lazy
Well, this is a starters entry. I just started this blog, obviously, and hopfully I'll remember to update. I guess I'll just let you know a little about myself. My name a Patty, I'm 20 years old, currently working full time, but I only have on week left at that job anyway. I'm returning to school full-time after a year away, this sucks I might add (not the school part; the missing part). I'm afraid I won't be able to keep up with my classes, but I have to try, if I don't want to be looked down upon for the rest of my life for not having a college degree. Let's see, what else, ok, hobbies, I love to sing, act and write (haven't written much lately due to lack of inspiration). If you want to read a few of my poems you can go to poetry.com and look under Patricia Mae Moreno. Maybe I'll post a few of my pieces on here, maybe some new ones, if I ever start writing again. Now on to my love life. I'm currently seeing someone. Ok, ok, for those who know me, I've been kind of seeing this guy for about 5 years now. On and off of course, he just seems to lure me back somehow. Alright, alright, I admit, I'm very much in love with him. Due to certain circumstances we are not together in what you may say "boyfriend/girlfriend" standards, but we are together. We know we want to marry eachother, but at the moment it's ok to "go out" with other people. I'm going to say goodnight now. I'm very tired, it's 3 in the morning and my eyes are closing on me as I type. Soon enough I'll update this blog of mine and I hope to hear from different people.
Laters.....S-W-T-A....(sleep with the angels). Adios.